Unexplained Crying

It’s 8:00 am.  W is quiet.  She’s watching Peppa Pig.  I couldn’t think of anything else to calm her down. She’s been crying on and off, but hard, for the last 4 hours. No fever.  Just really miserable cries.  I gave her Motrin a few minutes ago, hoping we can catch some sleep soon. 

W’s night started out well.  M put her to bed after I nursed her. She fell asleep almost immediately – at 6:45pm. As predicted, she woke at around 9:50 pm.  M went to her and tried to settle her.  He wasn’t successful in returning her to the crib without her crying.  So I went to her.  By the time I get her back into the crib, it was close to midnight I think.  

I got to sleep for under 2 hrs when she woke again around 1:30pm.  Her cough sounded bad – like it hurt her chest to cough.  She also vomited a little from coughing.  There was no position that made her comfortable. From then on, she slept on and off until about 4:00am. 

This is when she started crying miserably. It was so sad to hear her crying. M tried.  I tried. She didn’t even want to nurse.  For example I laid her down on our bed to nurse and she’d close her eyes and try to sleep. But then minutes later would burst out crying from unknown reasons. 

I felt helpless. I didn’t know how to make her feel better or stop crying. 

I’m just glad that she’s happier now. I hope she sleeps for her nap. I need it too. 


Hanging in Here

9:23 pm.  I’m sitting in the rocking chair, holding W, again.  I went to her at 8:26 pm, got her settled and back  in the crib. I was in the midst of enjoying a delicious slice of carrot cake I baked earlier. 

(At this point I feel like just bringing W in to our bed just so I can get some sleep. But maybe I should wait.  It’s just that I’m starting to ache from sitting in the chair and holding her for hours on end.)

I’m on my own tonight from 4:30 pm today.  M is at a Raptor’s game till late.  I had all three kids for dinner and bedtime.  Dinner was quick and easy – a teriyaki chicken bowl with broccoli and rice.  I even managed to make a carrot cake from scratch.

It’s been over a week since W moved to her new room.  The last couple of nights have been so exhausting with me going to W all hours of the night.  Once you’ve tasted sleep, it’s hard losing it again. I’m not sure why she’s waking a lot.  It’s also become increasingly challenging to put her in the crib without her waking and crying.  The I end up  holding her some more until I fall asleep in the  chair for a hour or so.

M suggested just letting her cry and go back to sleep on her own and not go to her at all. Well I tried that tonight and she just kept crying harder. By the time I picked her up she was so upset that she started coughing and gagging from crying so hard. That was less than ten minutes, too.

Some good things. We finally have a couple of gates up on the main floor so I’m able to let W walk around without worrying she’ll fall down stairs.  The shoes I ordered from Sears before the holidays just came today!  And they didn’t fit so now I need to figure out how to return an online purchase.   

At one point, just after V came home and M was getting ready to leave, I was also preparing dinner. Z was going to be home before 5 do I needed to get the food ready.  I tore off a large sheet of paper, squirted some poster paint on it and let the girls paint.  I took off Ws clothes and let her paint naked. 

W enjoyed herself so much it was comical to watch her.  She even have herself a moustache.  It looks like a lot of cleanup but in fact, it wasn’t.  Baby: tub wash. Floor: tear off masking tapes sheets and mop. Voila!

(Gotta go put W down. I’m going to try and rest before the next  I feel like a rough night is ahead of me. No rest for mama tonight. Sigh.)

Night Waking

It’s been 7 years since I’ve slept through a night.  I’m not kidding. There are days when I feel like a zombie.  My body is tired but my brain is still going. When I was in my teens I used to think we was a waste of time.   Well, that was 25 years ago. 

I love this face and all her giggles and babbles. She really is a bundle of happiness.  Even at midnight when she’s supposed to be asleep.  

Yesterday’s naps were crap. The usual 1 HR 20 min morning nap lasted for a mere 44 min.  It was only 9:20 am by the time she woke.  On the way to pickup Z from school, she got tired and fussy.  As we approach the dentist she fell asleep and M had to drive her around.  We managed to squeeze only 40 min out of it.  Still it was not even 1:30 pm. 

I my mind, I thought, ” There’s no way she’ll last till bedtime!”.

We managed to get home by 5:30pm so I get the kids bathed and changed.  W fell asleep without a hitch by 6:30 pm. So did I.  I was exhausted. I rescheduled tutoring as I couldn’t keep my eyes open.  But I still needed to make lunches.   Nothing prepared me for what was about to happen three hours later. 

W slept soundly for three hours.  And In that time, I made lunches, tidied up the kitchen, sat down to watch some tv with a cup of tea.  

9:30 pm.  She woke.  I went to her and tried to settle her. She did for a brief moment but I couldn’t put her down.  I was getting tired so I laid down with her.  That’s when she decided to get giddy and play.  That lasted until about 1:30.  That’s right. It was a brutal 4-HR wakeful time.  She was happy. It just wasn’t the right time. 

I guess all this can be attributed to teething once again.  She’s getting her upper left incisor.  I hope this doesn’t last too long. I can imagine how exhausting this must be for her as well.