I remember when Pinterest first came out.  You needed to have a special invitation to join.  I was one of the few amongst my friends that signed on to it.  Night after night, I would lie in bed, browsing and pinning.  It was the best thing that ever came along – for me at least.  To this day, Pinterest is my go-to for everything.  From recipes to inspiration for home organization, it has it all.  (I’ll let you in on a secret.  You know how everyone has their thing they do while on the toilet?  Some people play games – AheM, aheM.  Some people read a book, some just surf the web.  Well, I browse Pinterest!)

Okay, now that I’ve made a confessional that may or may not have been TMI, let’s move on.

I love wearing makeup because it makes me feel better.  Honestly, I look tired every morning – and why wouldn’t I?  I’m up all hours of the night going to W.  Being Asian, eye makeup is a huge challenge.  Our lids are not shaped the same way, and eyeshadows don’t stay on like they normally do for most women.  At the end of the day, I usually look like a racoon.  So, I turn to Pinterest for some makeup tips – from brushes to techniques.

My makeup brush collection is a bit of hodge podge.  My very first one was from Bodyshop – a face brush.  I also have a set of eye makeup brushes from EcoTools I bought online from Well. Then there’s the single brushes from Shoppers Drug Mart – Anabelle, Quo and Revlon.  Honestly, I still have trouble telling which brushes are used for what.  So again, I turn to Pinterest because there, you can find tons of visual guides that identify the plethora of makeup brushes. So, I’ve decided to label my brushes using M’s Brother Label Printer.  It makes everything look so much better!

And then there’s also the cleaning part.  I’m lazy when it comes to cleaning the brushes.  Why?  I don’t use them daily so I feel that they’re not that dirty.  But I know I’m wrong because I just cleaned my brushes today, and they were dirty. I had to just do with cleaning using a Dawn/vinegar/water solution and rinsing in water in the meantime.  Since I couldn’t locate any hot glue guns, I have to wait until M comes home to make the makeup brush cleaning pad.  This one is actually pretty clever, I have to say.  So I can’t wait to make it.

I found this clear plastic box from a box of Ferrero Rocher  chocolates that I was going to throw out.  Then I had an idea to use it instead for my cleaning pad.




Sleep and Sickness

It has been five days since W got sick with a cough.  A bad cough. We finally took her to the Children’s After Hours Clinic yesterday for a checkup. They prescribed a puffer and that seemed to have solved most of the problem.  She’s coughing a lot less now.  And no more vomiting since.

As for her sleep, there’s some progress and there’s some setbacks.  Last night, I got to sleep more than the past few nights.  I brought her into our bed after she woke up multiple times in the crib.  Although at the beginning of the night in our bed, she was flopping around and I couldn’t sleep – for fear that she will fall off and get hurt.

This morning, she fell asleep in the car as we approach home so I just kept driving.  Maybe it’s the route I took – lots of stop and go, but she only slept for 30 min.  I ended up going grocery store and shopping with her.  By the time we got home, it was 11:30 pm.  Her appetite was back and that’s a good sign.  Then she got tired quickly as she only had a short nap in the morning.  By 12:45pm, she was asleep. On me.

Yes, it’s been a long time since I wore her for her naps.  Those days are long gone and I guess I didn’t see myself doing it anytime soon.  But I did.  Yesterday, we went to IKEA after the doctor and we didn’t bring the stroller but I brought my Yaro Sling wrap with me just in case.  She was tired enough that I was able to nurse her in the family room and rock her in the wrap before venturing out to the rest of the store.

Unfortunately, she had a cough attack just minutes after she fell asleep and she vomited on herself and me.  I didn’t want to take her out and rouse her so I just did the best I could to clean up the mess and keep her in the wrap. (I know, that’s gross, but I didn’t mind it too much as I wanted her to sleep. Besides, I’ve been puked on every single day for the last 5 days. What difference does it make?)  After about 20 min, she fell back asleep.  But it was shortlived.  I ended up napping her again at home for the third time.

Today, I wore her again because I needed to make sure she slept.  M and I used to take turns wearing her – me during the week, and him, on the weekends.  We would lock ourselves in our room with the sound machine and the rocking chair, making sure we had a device to entertain ourselves.  Sometimes the nap would be an hour, sometimes an hour and a half, and sometimes, two or more hours.  Today, it was over two hours.

She started in the wrap and stirred and fussed, wanting to get out, at the 45 min mark. So I nursed her and she stayed asleep.  Then she got off and I just held her in the chair.  I tried to sleep but I wasn’t comfortable.  So I just read my e-book by Lisa See, China Dolls.  (It’s a great read, if you need something new.  Great for a book club, for sure.)

In any case I think she’s almost back to normal. Let’s hope for a restful night.



Bragging Rights

Today was another exhausting day.  We kept Z at home to make sure he fully recovers for school next week.  At one point, he started complaining about his tooth hurting and he was moaning and crying.  Good news though – no more vomiting.  And, he ate some dinner – mashed potatoes and ground beef patty. While V was out at a birthday party with M, we watched The Croods.  I took W up for bed early since she only had less than 2 hours of nap for the whole day.

Other than W using the potty for number two, she also is very good at communicating with us, even though she still doesn’t have words.  She uses a lot of pointing, grunting, and rocks her body back and forth to signal a YES.  Our bedtime routine is pretty consistent.  Brush teeth, wash hands, change diaper, sleeper, then sleep sack.  After, we either do nurse first (if she is fussy) or books first, then we nurse for the night with lights out.

While I tidied up the room and put her dirty clothes in the hamper, I asked her to choose some books for bedtime.  I have a box of board books on the floor beside the rocker that she can access.  I watch as she picks the books – Goodnight Kisses, Goodnight, I Love You, and Goodnight Gorilla.  I just realized now that they are all Goodnight books!  She carefully placed each book on the ottoman of the rocker and gave me a look to say she’s ready.  Then, she surprises me even more by picking up Goodnight Kisses and handing it to me, indicating she wanted that one read first.

I can only imagine when she starts talking! She is such a smart cookie.  We tried teaching her sign language but she seems to have her own way of communicating with us.


Last 24 Hours

Here’s a recap of what’s gone down in the last 24 hrs starting with the most recent. (You might want to read starting from the bottom so it makes more sense.)

9:00 pm.  I sit down to write this blog post, with a slice of carrot cake for comfort.  I am truly exhausted.  Contemplating going to bed now.  But I feel bad not staying up to hang with M.

8:00 pm.  I sneak out of the house to pick up two books on hold for me at the public library.  I am back by 8:20 pm.

7:20 pm.  I read to V and get her ready for bed.  By 7:35 pm, she’s asleep.  Z is downstairs already asleep apparently.

7:05 pm.  I tiptoe out of W’s room, after putting her down in the crib.  I hear her cry.  M goes to her.

5:55 pm.  I take W up to her room and get her ready for bedtime.  She is so tired from having a day of broken naps.  I hope the night is relatively good.

5:30 pm.  M, W and I sit at the dining table and eat our dinner.  The other kids are still watching tv – cruise control.  We have a plan – to move Z’s mattress down to the spare room on the main floor and M to sleep with him.

4:55 pm.  I learn that we are up for a renewal and may potentially be able to use this opportunity to buy another house.  Hmmm.  Interesting idea.  But I bet there are no houses available that are affordable.

4:10 pm.  We’re on cruise control.  Kids are watching tv.  Z is on the iPad.  I tell M about the business card and the visit from the guy.  He then gives them a call.  Turns out, our 3-yr mortgage term has ended and we were supposed to contact our mortgage company to renew.  We didn’t receive any notice – no letter or phone call. Their excuse was that they only had our work number and left several messages.  That’s not true at all.  M only got one today.

3:25 pm.  Z moans again.  And he throws up all over the bed and some on the floor.  I hear the front door open.  M and V are home.  Some relief.  I am so tired.

3:17 pm.  The door bell rings.  Who could it be?  Some guy with a business card that is from a property management company.  He asks for M but I tell him he’s not home and I ask what this is regarding.  He informs me that it’s concerning the mortgage.  I ask what about.  He then says the company wants to make sure that we are still the same occupants in the house. Weird.

2:50 pm.  W is awake.  I can hear her from his room.  I go get her and bring her in to Z’s room.  He doesn’t want me to leave his side.  So I stay.  I put away laundry that has been sitting for a couple of days now.  W starts to get antsy.

2:38 pm.  I hear Z moaning.  I take him out to his room so he doesn’t wake W.  I stay with him, lying in bed snuggling.  I feel bad for him.  He’s scared.  He asks me if dehydration is bad.  I tell him it can be.  He also asks me what’s going on with him because he doesn’t know why he’s feeling so sick.

2:00 pm.  I managed to convince Z to nap in our bed – all three of us.  He agrees and hits the sack.  I nurse W in my arms as I sit on the bed and she falls asleep.  (Third attempt at a nap.)  I lay her down with her still attached to me and I try to get some rest.   I’m at 16% battery life on my iPhone. I’ve been texting M and updating him on our status.  He texts me and tells me that Z might have Norovirus. I look it up.  Not good.

1:45 pm.  Just chilling with W and Z on the iPad. He wants Roblox but it’s rated for 12+ so I don’t budge. He was getting frustrated with choosing a game to download.   Then he complained about his tummy hurting again. So I straddled him on my legs to hug him.  Then he gagged and vomited. He tried to keep it in but it came out – all over my neck and right shoulder. I clean up the mess again.  Where’s the baby this whole time?  She’s standing there crying because Z is crying. (It’s going to be a long afternoon.)

1:15 pm.  Z is watching as Scooby Doo lying on the couch.  Then he lurches forward and throws up on the floor. He starts crying and tells me his tummy hurts. I clean up the mess.

12:30 pm.  I can see that Z is struggling to function with the iPad.  He’s undecided about what games to play – it’s worse when the App Store is open.  So I convince him to just lay down and watch tv.  He has only had a cheese stick all day so he’s low on energy.

11:54 am.  I am woken by screams and howling.  Z is in the hallway very upset.  I quickly put W in the crib, hoping she wouldn’t wake.  But she does – yet again.  I administer Tylenol to Z coz he feels hot.  Then I offer him the iPad to play with on the couch.

11:30 am.  I take W up to her room to try and nap her for the 2nd time – because she really didn’t sleep this morning.  I am so exhausted I fall asleep in the chair.

11:00 am.   Back at home again.  I make lunch but neither kid is hungry.  All Z wants is the iPad but I can see that he’s so weak and needs to lie down.  So I ask him to go up to his room, change and lie down in his bed.

10:20 am. Back in the car, on the road to pick up Z.  He’s got a sore throat and a low-grade fever.  I watch him in the rearview mirror and see that he’s clearly not himself.  Even W is trying to talk to him but he’s got no energy.

10:05 am.  My phone rings.  It’s Z’s school.  Panic sets in.  I don’t pick up because W is in my arms.  I attempt to place her in the crib again – this time, she’s up for good.  Darn!

9:27 am  We arrive home.  I take her straight up to the bedroom to get her ready for her morning nap.  I attempt to put her in the crib twice and no luck.

8:40 am   We leave the house to drop off M and then V.  W manages to stay awake for most of the ride until we are about 3 min from home.  She is so drowsy – her face I just want to kiss it.  Poor tired girl!

6:40 am  I’m up for the day since W is awake.  M slept in the other room all night, taking turns with Z and V.

4:30 am   I am back in the rocking chair with W.

11:40 pm.  I’m rocking W back to sleep after nursing her.  She coughs so hard that she vomits all over my front and herself.  I quickly change her and myself.

Hanging in Here

9:23 pm.  I’m sitting in the rocking chair, holding W, again.  I went to her at 8:26 pm, got her settled and back  in the crib. I was in the midst of enjoying a delicious slice of carrot cake I baked earlier. 

(At this point I feel like just bringing W in to our bed just so I can get some sleep. But maybe I should wait.  It’s just that I’m starting to ache from sitting in the chair and holding her for hours on end.)

I’m on my own tonight from 4:30 pm today.  M is at a Raptor’s game till late.  I had all three kids for dinner and bedtime.  Dinner was quick and easy – a teriyaki chicken bowl with broccoli and rice.  I even managed to make a carrot cake from scratch.

It’s been over a week since W moved to her new room.  The last couple of nights have been so exhausting with me going to W all hours of the night.  Once you’ve tasted sleep, it’s hard losing it again. I’m not sure why she’s waking a lot.  It’s also become increasingly challenging to put her in the crib without her waking and crying.  The I end up  holding her some more until I fall asleep in the  chair for a hour or so.

M suggested just letting her cry and go back to sleep on her own and not go to her at all. Well I tried that tonight and she just kept crying harder. By the time I picked her up she was so upset that she started coughing and gagging from crying so hard. That was less than ten minutes, too.

Some good things. We finally have a couple of gates up on the main floor so I’m able to let W walk around without worrying she’ll fall down stairs.  The shoes I ordered from Sears before the holidays just came today!  And they didn’t fit so now I need to figure out how to return an online purchase.   

At one point, just after V came home and M was getting ready to leave, I was also preparing dinner. Z was going to be home before 5 do I needed to get the food ready.  I tore off a large sheet of paper, squirted some poster paint on it and let the girls paint.  I took off Ws clothes and let her paint naked. 

W enjoyed herself so much it was comical to watch her.  She even have herself a moustache.  It looks like a lot of cleanup but in fact, it wasn’t.  Baby: tub wash. Floor: tear off masking tapes sheets and mop. Voila!

(Gotta go put W down. I’m going to try and rest before the next  I feel like a rough night is ahead of me. No rest for mama tonight. Sigh.)


Cuddling with stuffies in a toddler bed.

Today, we nearly had to drive around for W’s nap.  As we were approaching V’s school, she started to get really drowsy.  While unloading V, I told W I’d be back.  She didn’t like this and started to cry.  It was a good thing because it prevented her from falling asleep.  I then drove home like a mad woman, giving her my car keys, the 407 ETR transponder, anything I can find for her to play with just to keep her up.  Yay, we made it home.


W figured out how to open these doors after watching a couple check out the furniture.

W figured out how to open these doors after watching a couple check out the furniture.


W’s nap was ok.  She woke up after an hour and I had to go to her to extend her sleep.  I was feeling tired so I ended up falling asleep in the chair for about an hour and then I put her back in the crib.  I got thirty more minutes to myself before she woke up.  We then ate lunch and got ready to hear out to IKEA.  We had a return to do and a baby gate recall to deal with.


W trying to take the ‘iphone’ off the charging pad – thinking that it was a real one.
W insisting on riding backwards.  Just coz.


We had some fun at IKEA.  W really enjoyed walking around and exploring every inch and nook in the store.  (I tried to tire her out so she would fall asleep in the car on the way to pick up V but she didn’t.)


Today, M had PD Day – Report Card Writing Day, really.  But since he enjoys my company so much, he decided not to go into school.   As a parent of three young children, anyone knows that it’s impossible to get anything productive done with them around.  (Ok, maybe impossible is a little harsh.) So, we decided to do some tidying and cleaning while W was napping.

Of course, I was on my toes the whole time, expecting her to wake up anytime while we were in the midst of a very productive morning.  She had woken up twice, at 4:30 am, and then at 5:30 am, after M had gone to her.  Then she finally woke at 7am, with M holding her in his arms.  I guess she must’ve been tired from a broken sleep.  Although I have to say that she didn’t wake until 2:30 am.  That’s the longest stretch of sleep she’s had ever.

It’s 12:45 pm.  She JUST woke up.  That’s a little over three hours of sleep for a nap!  This makes me SO SO SO HAPPY!!!  You don’t understand.  Finally, some good sleep.  It has been five days since I moved W into her own room.  I would say her sleep has been improving a little each day.  Yesterday for nap, she slept in the crib without waking for almost two hours!  I think I found her new sleep window – between 9:30 and 10:15 am. Past that, she is too tired and might have a short nap.

I’m trying to keep the routine the same each time.  For nap, I may or may not read a book or two, depending on how she feels.  If she is too tired and fussy, I skip it altogether.  Three things I always do is put her thin sleep sack on, turn on the sleep machine and the humidifier.  For night time, we put on sleeper and a thicker sleep sack (Aiden and Anais) do two books, turn off the lights and nurse with songs.  If its’ a good night, she’s usually asleep within 20 min.

This is our third try at getting things right with sleep.  I think it’s going to be okay.  Maybe M and I might be able to go on date nights again soon.  I’m glad I moved her out sooner than later.  It will also make it an easier transition back to work for me as I might be getting more sleep than when she’s in our bed.  (M admitted the other day that he misses her in the bed.  I do, too, but I’m sleeping better without her.)



The day has been damp and gloomy since the morning. I was determined to have a good day.  I don’t know about you but when my baby doesn’t have a good sleep or nap, it throws me off completely. W woke at 5:30 am and didn’t go back to sleep.  She must’ve been tired because she fell asleep shortly after we dropped M off at his school.  After dropping V off, I decided to drive to Once Upon a Child in Richmond Hill.  I took Bayview all the way up to Elgin Mills and it was a nice drive.  I really enjoyed it and tried to pace myself so that I would not be stopping at too many red lights.  W slept for 1 hr 17 min.

Upon arriving at the store, everything was very organized as the store had just opened for the day.  I was one of two customers and I let W walk around and explore.  I scored some really good deals. The above two jackets are down-filled and they cost $15 and $17.50, respectively.  I also found another one for Z – NorthFace, also down-filled and reversible.  It was a steal for $30!  (Except when I got home, I realized the store clerk had forgotten to put it in the bag.  So M asked one of his colleagues to pick it up for us since she lives up in that area.)  The dresses are for W.  The left one, from Mexx, was on clearance and cost me $1.  The right one is a Baby GAP dress, for $4.50.
And these pants were also on clearance, so I got them all for $1 each!  Crazy.  GAP, OshKosh, GAP.  I also got some books for the kids. All in all, a great morning with some good scores.


Buddha Bowl Buffet

Yesterday was our last get-together with sis and her bf.  They fly off to London tomorrow.  They’re going to be sadly missed.  We had a send-off lunch and one my other sis-in-laws suggested Buddha Bowls.  It’s perfect since it can be made to be totally vegan.  I loved the whole concept since you can really have a variety of items in your bowl.  Here are the items we had in our buffet.

file_006Grains:  Brown Rice and Quinoa

Proteins:  Tofu Puffs, Fried Tofu slices, Edamame, French lentils (Technically, Quinoa is also protein)

Vegetables: Corn kernels, cucumber chunks, carrots shredded, avocado cubes, roasted butternut squash slices, cherry tomatoes halved, shredded head lettuce, shredded romaine lettuce, blanched and chopped rapini with olive oil and garlic, sliced shanghai bok choy

Aromatics: red onion, scallions, cilantro, basil

Crunchy Toppings: Cashew pieces, chickpea puffs

Dressings: Tahini, Soy Maple Garlic, Peanut


There are endless combinations you can make with these choices.  In fact, there are even more items available you can use.  The possibilities are endless.


It’s easy to have two or three bowls since it’s all so light and fresh.  And the best part is that there’s no need to worry about the food getting cold as everything is served at room temperature.  As for dressings, I chose the peanut and soy ones because I love those flavours.  You can use whatever dressings suit your tastebuds.

file_003This has me thinking now.  I’m going to serve this next time we have a party since people can just help themselves and it can be completely vegan and gluten-free.

What other items do you think would be good to include in a Buddha Bowl?

Moving Out

W managed to stay awake for the whole ride to and back from Vs school. She’s been falling asleep on the way home all of last week.  It took a lot of effort to keep her awake – me encouraging V to talk to her and then giving her the car keys to keep her occupied.  The trouble is when she falls asleep in the car, it’s too early and she only sleeps for 35 min max.

Today, I might’ve kept her up a little too long.  For the past week, whenever W woke up in the wee hours of the morning, she would get all happy and start saying “Hi” to us repeatedly.  She sounds so enthusiastic it’s hard to get mad at her.  Because of our sleeping arrangement where I’ve created a side car with her crib, she  will literally climb over me to go between M and I. This might go on for half an hour to two hours.  When I get fed up, I ask M to take over and usually she will settle.

Last night, I thought to myself, ‘That’s it!  I’m moving W out of our room.  Maybe she won’t have a reason to wake up and play since we won’t be in her room.’  So, after rushing home from dropping V off school, I immediately go upstairs with W and start to rearrange and move furniture around to put her new room together.  I started around 9:25 am and it took me almost an hour.  I had to move the crib, which meant dismantling it and putting it back together.  I also moved her dresser and the rocking chair.  There were a few other things I had to move out of that room.  By the time I was done, sweat was pouring off my forehead and neck.  I think it was a good workout.

Tonight is her first night sleeping by herself and we’ll see how it goes.  Wish me luck.